Saying Goodbye To Winter & My Insecurities

I have to admit that I’ve been seasonally confused. Technically it’s spring, but there’s snow on the ground and the temps have been so sporadic. I’m just happy to be saying goodbye to winter. #byefelicia I don’t know about any of you, but every time we change seasons it sort of refreshes me. I go through different moods for each and I definitely feel the most alive and rejuvenated in the spring and summer months. I sometimes think that winter sucks me into a black hole emotionally. This is the time where I tend to get into more ruts and feel uninspired. I tend to be more of a homebody because the cold makes me want to stay inside, cuddled up in bed. It really is crazy how much the weather can affect our moods. A little bit of sunshine and warmth definitely does the body, mind and soul some good.

Speaking of sunshine, I’m extremely excited to be going on an impromptu trip to Cabo
next weekend! I literally booked my flight two days ago. It was honestly one of those YOLO
moments. The opportunity presented itself and I said, “Why the hell not?” I haven’t had a
resort type of vacation in several years. I know that I travel a lot, but it’s never that kind of relaxing vacation. I’m usually walking around everywhere playing tourist or I’m on a super jam-packed trip for work. This will really give me some ME time that I honestly have been in desperate need of. These last several months have been such a whirlwind for me mixed with both highs and lows. I’m actually going to be very honest right now. For a moment, part of me thought about not going because I still don’t feel like I’m ready to be in a swimsuit yet. I know that probably sounds stupid to some, but in full transparency I haven’t felt confident wearing one in a very long time. I’ve struggled with body insecurities more so over these last few years because of my dermatitis. It’s made me want to keep my legs hidden when it’s showing the most. I’ve skipped the beach almost every summer because of it and I’m so tired of doing that to myself. I’ve been doing the best I can to work on bettering myself in all aspects this year and that includes saying YES to all the things I kept saying NO to before. I’ve been working really hard at this new lifestyle with eating better and working out as consistently as I can and I am very proud of my progress so far. Even though I’m not where I want to be just yet, I can’t let that stop me anymore. I can’t just wait around until I feel like I’m ready. I have to just live and I have to live in the moment. So you know what? I’m going to wear a swimsuit and I’m going to own it, flaws and all.

I wasn’t initially planning to write about that today, but I felt compelled to share it. I can be the first to admit that I sometimes fall into this habit of comparing my body to someone else’s and that’s horrible to do. I’ll see someone super toned with abs showing and I’m like I work so hard for that and don’t have it yet. Or I see someone with a thigh gap and I think how my thighs have gotten so much bigger as I’ve gotten older. We live in a world where everyone is showing their best self on social media and it’s so easy to get caught up in that comparison game. #Bodygoals is constantly being thrown around. None of our bodies are perfect and there is no particular way that we are “supposed” to look. Beauty comes in all shapes, sizes and imperfections. We all need to embrace this more, myself included. My goal with working out is honestly not about the scale or getting down to a certain size. It might happen along the way, but for me it’s more about getting to a place where I feel a bit more confident, stronger and healthy, whatever that looks like!

I guess I should switch gears and talk about this outfit for a moment. I recently bought this pair of denim and can’t tell you how happy I was that they actually fit me CROPPED. It’s such a struggle to find cropped denim when you’re petite. Usually they’ll come to my ankles, which is perfect, but I’ve actually been on the hunt for a pair like this. I ended up getting these a size too big, so I needed a belt. It’s not Gucci, but it will do. 😝 This one is actually really old from H&M. I need to stock up on some new ones. I had also been searching for a grey coat and was so happy to score this one on sale last month. It’s a great transitional coat too since it’s not too heavy or bulky. I’m trying to get in a few more darker themed looks before I start switching up my color palette to something lighter for spring.

Thanks for reading today’s post and I hope you’re all having an amazing week so far!

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